Who does she think she is?

“Who does she think she is?”  I cannot tell you how many times a day this question creeps into my head.  When you are programmed with the framework of judgement, it is very hard to live as if you are meant to do and take on whatever you want.  

Now, I am not writing this with the intent of pointing fingers or placing blame on others.  I know it is my job to manage my own self-talk and determine my fate.  And since I cannot, nor should not try to control what others think, say or feel about me, I will best be served by putting that energy into taking control over my thoughts, words and feelings about myself.  

Pretty straight forward, right?  However, simple is not always easy!  

No matter how good I may feel about what I am doing, those words always seem to find a way back into my head causing me to question, doubt, hesitate and rethink the path I am on.  They are not necessarily spoken directly to me, but there are so many indirect ways they are blasted right at me, sending my vulnerability into a tailspin.  

Even though we may know exactly who those people are and have the emotional intelligence to understand where it’s coming from and the fact that those judgements actually have nothing to do with us, but are stemmed from their own limited capabilities, it still finds a way to bring us down, even if just for a moment.

Following your own heart versus what others expect of you puts you at even more risk to be scrutinized but also sets you up to experience even more true joy. 

So when the question “Who does she think she is?” pops into my head I now take a deep breath and remind myself of exactly who I am…

I am all about connecting with people and helping them move forward.  I love to chit chat and put a smile on their face, even if just for a moment.  I am very enthusiastic about helping people overcome struggles and care very deeply for them.  I honor what sets people apart while finding a connection with them. For me, everything happens for a reason and I love to share my thoughts and feelings about it.  I am easy going to be around but enjoy time alone to process as well.  I tend to focus on problems and won’t stop until I find a solution so that things ultimately end on a positive note.   I struggle when I stop listening to my own desires and get caught up in the measurements of what I have or have not accomplished.  I go to a dark place when I overthink and focus on the past.  I am genuinely interested in seeing people do well and feel low when I start comparing myself to others or am viewed as though I am trying to be better than them.  

I would love to know, what is the phrase that creeps into your head that doesn’t serve you well?  And how do you not let it overtake you?  Let’s connect!