I just wrote my post about essential oils and emotional support and it brought me to one of the first mantras I adopted at the beginning of my transition period. My childhood was heavily influenced by negativity so I tend to lean in this direction and throughout the years I have struggled with depression but to prevent myself from slipping down a dark hole I knew would be easy for me, I never let myself have two bad days in a row. If something happened (and many of those somethings did) that sent me spiraling I gave myself grace, let myself feel all the feels, vented, bitched and complained to whoever would listen, threw the covers over my head to try to escape life, but the next day I put my big girl pants back on (or like my girlfriend, applied the red lipstick), oiled up and made myself have a better attitude, maybe not good, but at least better.
My youngest son was still living at home with me for the first year of the split so I always forced myself get out of bed to see him off to school or work and would be showered and dressed by the time he got home. There were definitely days when each minute in between was spent in bed or on the couch with every ounce of energy zapped out of me but I refused to let my kids see me in that light and more importantly refused to let myself fall completely apart because of someone who wanted to see that happen. As they say, the best revenge is success so when the sun sets on your bad day remember to wake up with a new attitude and make the most of the new one in front of you, your future self-empowerment depends on it.
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